Handing Dad His Pink Slip for Poor Performance

Things are so bad I actually asked my Dad to co-sign a lease - that's all, just write his name so I ahae a home - and he said yes and then Pam LaFayette said no, she's that young student of his he left my Mom, once his young student, for, remember?  I think we know why he taught college - young pussy.  I am disgraced to be related to scum like this, but every few years I get the crazy notion my Dad grew ethics.  And he says he has and then Pam forbids it and then he gets furious with me for having asked and putting him in this position.  My Dad had done almost nothing for me in my life because his guilt tripping. passive aggressive, whiney, cowardly, nonstop lying, rageful "personality" is only there to selfishly take care of Dr Donald Royce-Roll.  So my youngest sister got a Wii and they have their sailboat and hey, I don't get a home. I don't care if he has Asperger's, people with Asperger's do not have to be creepy scumbags.  Honestly, when I left home at age 14, it was a relief for me.  I didn't have to keep telling two inept people how to be parents, I could cut out the stupid middle men and do it myself.  Being disbaled has made my worst nightmares come true: Having to rely on the people who taught me to trust no one and that no one will help me and that my needs are not important and that they are victims with sob stories to make me go away. I am not going away, I have a right to live and speak and have parents who act like parents not problem children!

Writing to inform you that you are no longer considered a trustworthy person for cosigning a lease and due to your previous track record of putting Pam’s desires/tantrums before mundane average fathering I see you as a risk to my perfect reputation, perfect credit score and perfect landlord relations’ history.  The fact that Pam’s changing plans for her family that I am an afterthought at best that she allows you have has proven to be disastrous for my health and well being.  When you were not allowed to send me $30 for medication when I was in Toronto and when you gave me secret hidden money while ranting at insane volume about my evilness, you two proved two more times that she is the boss.  Your word is worthless.  She runs your life, just like you told me you liked. But that is your choice.  I don’t blame Pam, I blame a man who repeatedly sells out his first born and only flesh and blood child with a disability to make conflict go away with the woman he choose to live with.  No one is giving it to you from both ends.  When you opt out of talking responsibility you still are responsible.  I am tired of Pam and you treating me like a criminal.  I am a good person and if I was there in person I suppose I could scream at you endlessly like Pam and get my way too but I was not raised to be a manipulative bitch who bullies others to get her own way.  I have far more class than the Jerry Springer nightmare you brought into our lives.  You are responsible for your actions, not Pam. She won’t allow you to give me the same as the girls she is mother to.  But it is YOUR fault for allowing this treatment of me to continue rampantly for decades.

As for me being a risk financially to you, let’s look at the FACTS about character and money, shall we?

Facts:

I have never been fired from any job.  I have never not paid a bill, even if it came when I was living in a different country.  I have been paying rent and bills since I was 15 years old and have never broken a lease or ran from a bill.  Never once has a collection agency contacted me. I paid off my student loans in one year by living on just $700 a month because I hate debt. I never cheated on either of my husbands.  I never asked my child to lie to either of my husbands about my cheating.  I never stole from work, especially not expensive furniture like GMC chairs.  I once had to end a lease before it was over but gave 6 weeks notice, had the landlord keep my security deposit (although the place was spotless), and he was very understanding that I had to move to be near a better hospital. He has no ill will towards me because I am not and have never been an irresponsible bad person in my entire life.  If I had been a fuck up how would I be alive today?  I TOOK CARE OF ME and MY BILLS for the last 25 years, with recent help from Mom.  Your much needed $500 I fear will be the first thing Pam cuts from the “family budget” far before the sailboat, the kids’ lessons, her Martha Stewart Living magazine subscriptions, the house, the cars etc.  To me, your money, which normal fathers demand their disabled daughters take because they understand the role of a father is to put the child not their selfish need to shut their wife up as she throws fits to get her, because normal fathers are adults, that money hangs dangerously because I will be the first corner she cuts and you will allow it because you fear her and always take the easiest path for Donald, no matter whom it hurts. 

I am not sacrificingmy dignity to grovel to such low class people for a signature.  Just a signature on a normal one year commitment that rent will be paid.  If that lease was broken by me suddenly becoming a selfish bitch who has the luxury of making a mistake (nothing I have ever had, trust me, I never got a Pam to control me/take care of everything), do you know what would happen?

You would not pay anything because you are in NY state. You might want some facts instead of listening to Pam slam me as a risk.  Look, she is the risk for me.  She wrecked my life and has the power to at any time deem my $500 as unnecessary for her needs.  I know in her eyes I am charity not family.  If this was one of her kids, she’d move the moon.  I am from the practice family she wants erased possibly because in that family she is the whore who fucked a married man and got him to leave his kid.  She is not and has never taken any efforts as the grown up in this relationship to change that role, she just wants me erased and when she decided that she cannot afford that $500 she will make you stop sending it.  And then you all can go sailing.

However, a landlord in VT will not hire a NY state lawyer to go after someone for a few thousand dollars.  So guess what if that lease was broken, who gets hurt?  A 70 year old man who is not looking to rent and has a wife to be on a lease with him if he needs to?  No, not you.  ME. Because when I next try to get an apartment I cannot use them as previous landlords. Since unlike some of my family I have never in my life lied, this would greatly upset me.  I have spent a life trying to undo the curse of flakiness scam artistry that comes with when I say Royce-Roll to anyone who has ever met you.  It is humiliating to be your daughter with your bad reputation that I have worked so hard to overcome by being so perfect in every way.  I am 40 and have done no damage to anyone financially or emotionally or physically – my honor is proven with a perfect track record.

Did I ever steal and wreck your car?  Throw wild parties when you were out of town on prom night?  Steal your booze? No.  Did I ever steal money from you?  No. Have I ever screwed you over?  No.

Meanwhile you tell me Pam did not come at me with a knife when you guys had your nightly screamfest tantrum,and yet you say you are not calling me a liar.  Sir, you cannot have it both ways. You cannot appease a crazy woman and be a decent person.  You made your choice.  Your track record of lies, irresponsibility, risking my life, neglecting my health needs, unreliability – even if you keep blaming Pam for all of it – it YOUR CHOICE.

No one is pulling you in two ways.  You have a disabled daughter.  No one cares if you knew that.  You just do.  No one wants to hear your epic victim tales that you use to manipulate us with guilt.  My life has been far harder than yours and I am a better person.

I am tired of being treated well when Pam allows it and like shit when she is mad at you. Your severe instability due to your rocky marriage is your problem, not mine. Out of love most fathers sacrifice for their children.  Out of greed you sacrificed me to have a spoiled daughter – I mean controlling mother – I mean a wife you fear.  No one cares about your victim pleas anymore. They fall on deaf ears.

Pam lost her job? Too bad, everyone has.  I grew up in small apartments, with quasi-legal cars with holes in the floor, with stolen furniture eating egg noodles and hot dogs with ketchup.  My standard of living never rose like yours has.  Everyone I know has filled bankruptcy and got apartments and stopped paying for gym memberships, cable TV and magazines and oh yeah boat moorings, as if they had those!  We all suck it up.  We go to food banks and make 10 calls being on hold for 40 minutes to social services to get $10 for fuel.  It’s called being poor.  I was raised poor.  No special fancy daycares for me, no language classes, no rowing classes, no Wii.  When you and your new family (where I am like the letter Y, sometimes I am in the family and sometimes not, for rules no one exactly understands, oh, Pam’s “mood episodes” as you call them – but then deny it - and your terror of them) are living at the level of poverty I have been at my whole life, then I’ll cry you a river.  Til then, I really do not care.

I hope you continue to send the $500 so I can you know eat and have a room to sleep in, but do not fear: Your terrible track record of unpredictable behavior makes you a threat to MY financial well being.

This attempt to have a father has yet again failed because you still do not know anything about fathering. Since Pam is your puppet master I wish she was a kinder more compassionate saner and grown up woman, not a bratty little girl.  I am a good daughter, I just have King Victim for a father and his new wife Queen Bully in their Queendom Denialland.  Since I am a better person as the facts show, I am too high class to fit in to that family.

I hope the Queen deigns to let you send your disabled daughter you have never had to do jackshit for the $500 so she can stay alive. If you have some sobstory to get out it, tell the lies to Mom.  We both know you are spineless, or perhaps teste-less.  And you take out your anger with Pam on me and Mom because you are in such a sick abusive marriage.

I feel so sorry for my sisters. You two are such screaming psychos I cannot imagine what they live with.  You in terror, Pam terrorizing.  And when you die, Pam will conveniently have me disappeared from their lives.

It is so sad I have a father whom I can not trust.  At age 70 he still hasn’t become a man and taken responsibility for his life.  But hey he told me that’s how he likes.  Yet remember this: You still are responsible.  You can blame Pam or Mom or me all you want your decisions but at the end of your life you will have that shame staring you in the face saying “You were a liar and a coward who allowed people who loved and trusted to you to come to harm because you were selfish. And then you blamed them for you hurting them.”

I would LOVE to have me, Pam and Mom all in a room with you and watch your lies shift and your panic rise. Oh no, who might emotionally scare you the most? Oh no how do you please everyone so you don’t have to ever grow some balls?

I deserved and deserved a much better father and you do notin any way deserve a daughter as easy as me.  May the girls steal your car and wreck it, run up $2000 in texting, steal your liquor, thrash your home throwing parties, be arrested for shoplifting, steal your checks – You know, the normal stuff teenagers do, when I was working and paying rent on leases I did not break.

Me and Mom have made you life so easy.  This is perhaps my only regret, that no one has ever held you accoutablebecause your screaming and guilttripping is tiresome.  Go work that magic of terrible parenting with the girls and let them know when they are 18 I have a SAFE place for them to live, if I am not dead because Pam decided you cannot send your disabled daughter $500 a month, not even enough to rent a room.

I don’t want fleas so I won’t lie with you again.  Have your dramaramas Pam controlled life until you die, just don’t ever talk to me again. It’s just a waste of my love which so many wonderful deserve, people who actually love me.  Hey, Dad, guess what, a lot of people think I am amazing. Too bad if my dad does he can only show or say it when his wife is not around. I don’t want that crappy love, I want REAL love and I am not taking the scraps Pam allows you to throw me from the trash anymore. You are a bad father.

So you do not get the privilege of cosigning a lease with me, something I need to have a home because I do not have a job to put on an application.  No co-signer, no home.  You don’t want me to have a home.  Your reason is that if I fuck you over you’ll have to pay “thousands and thousands,”which has no legal reality, and is incredibly insulting.  Look, you called me liar so many times when I questioned your and Pam’s lies.  You cannot call me someone who would break a lease and fuck others over.  This relationships requires me eating so much shit and I am sick of being degraded all the time.

I am a good person.  There is not one shread of evidence that I would do anything illegal or harmful. A person’s future behavior is best determined by their previous behavior. Well, if you look at the string of broken promises and the way our relationship is controlled by what Pam has forbidden, you are a very shady business partner.

Maybe you two can binge drink and scream at each other.  It’s high class because the beer is imported, right?

Total embarrassment to me. A pussy whipped father.

You have been blocked from my cell phone and both my email addresses.

You have hurt me and insulted me for the last time.  I will not take this living by Pam’s decree anymore.  A real dad loves his daughter no matter what his nutjob wife screams. I won’t date men who treat me this bad and never have.  At least all the men I have been with were of higher moral quality than you.  I wish Grandmum was here for me to tell her all this.  Since she was the first angry woman you feared and were controlled by and she loved me, then maybe you would be able to, too.

I wanted a Dad like my friends have.  Dads who do not sell out their kids repeatedly.  I left you alone for decades because you sucked at fathering and were such an angry, guilt tripping mess.  You barely had to do a thing as my father.  Mom did it all for you even when you lived with us.

I wish you offered to send that $500 on your own because you loved me and cared about me.  Normal disabled children do not have to beg for it and get their Moms to also beg.  Normal children who are disabled do not have to worry that a sailboat or gym membership might mean that they won’t have a home.  Normal disabled children with perfect financial and legal histories do not have to beg to get their father to SIGN a leae because disabled people have to have a co-signer. What messages are you sending me Dad?  Look, you are treating me like a criminal with no proof of me ever doing anything you fear.

Well, at least I know without a doubt you do not respect trust or love me.

Oh I am sorry this is about me. Umm, ok, poor you, poor you, poor you, yes, of course I understand that Pam comes first and when she is not being so mean to you, you can be my Daddy. Poor Daddy stuck with mean Pam.  It’s not like he’s a grown up man or anything.  Oh wait!.....

Holy Crow, 40,000?

Wow, 40,000 times people have stumbled on my blog goggling "celtic physical characteristics." Oh, what? Some of you actually read it on purpose? Colour me humble.

Why Exactly Do People Still Go to College?

i copied this from an online discussion. it is by me.

My Dad just retired from teaching at Cornell and I have been surrounded by higher education all my life and the people I know with skills have jobs and so many with MAs do not. The ones with MAs have a lot of debt though which the ones who know how to fix a car or take care of broken air conditioners don't. Higher education is a strange thing, there are those who go to learn about the world (useless degree) and those who go to get a career (possibly helpful, who know?). I have so many peers who got their degrees and now want to work at nonrpfots and save the world and I am explaining "No cares that you know women's studies, history of the labor movement, ecophilosophy, and diversity training. Nonprofits - I worked that world - want accountants, website designers, plumbers and IT people. All the things we scorned to be "well educated.'" Then my friends with their MAs and no work cry a lot and are mad at me for saying the truth - we have nothing to offer but nice dinner party talk in the right circles. I was lucky that in my first semester I went to college I had an honest teacher who helped me decide to drop out. Ditto for when I got accepted to OSU's MSW. all that debt for the lowest paying masters working for the government telling people no i cannot help you all day? meanwhile exboyfriends who dropped out of 5 months at devry have great retirement and union coverage.

PhDs are a minus now in hiring. a grade school teacher with their masters won't be hired because she or he will have to be paid more. we have a glut of educated people. m,y dad taught me that most college degrees are only good for TEACHING college. you just end up in the world of academia for ever because no one anywhere else has use for you. He's a middle ages art historian! and it applies to friends and family with any arts or writing or that useless degree "communications" that was only offered for two years then disappeared since it had no practical application. i don't know anyone who cannot build a webpage, proof read, etc now. however, everyone i know who was a computer geek who dropped out of an IT school is working. working like crazy 70 hours a week for a company that mistreats them and is ethically against everything they stand for, but they are working.

as someone who spent half her childhood staying at various campus as dad did NEH grants work and the rest of the time hanging out around students who only went to college to 1. find a husband (1970s) and 2. kill time because of not wanting to work or there being no work and having all these overeducated friends in bankruptcy and yet the guys i know who fix motorcycles are doing fine,i think college is overrated as far as work goes. at least for anyone creative and artsy - become a plumber and make money for the art supplies you need, don;t go in debt for art school. if you are overeducated you cannot get hired because it is assumed you will leave once that geology job markjet starts boomong again.

in canada (i am canadian) there are a very small number of openings at universities and colleges, decided by the unions in part. so the competition is fierce. people in school have to really want that degree, not be wasting time findng themselves. in the US anyone can buy a degree, in canada you have to earn it. when higher education is nothing but a business, the standards lower drastically. having a magna cum laude degree from a US school was in their eyes like maybe grade ten. so an american degree and an canadian one have different value on the job market.

but my generation X were told to get degrees in things we loved and not think about money as the outcome for college. ha ha ha ha, we were screwed. but half the degrees for jobs back then are obsolete - i mean i could have a communications degree. if i did graphic design then i'd know nothing about computer generated art. being in a changing world is weird. i was in the generation that learned metric in the US, then the US dropped metric and we are lost. i think my generation was the first where we were told learning french was useless, take spanish to get ahead in business. maybe now it would be cantonese? the point being that college doesn't really reflect the future job market. here in VT in winter if you sell firewood you are rich and if you have a MA in journalism you are servng coffee to tourists.

i would ask anyone thinking of attending college WHY what do you hope to gain from this? for the baby boomer generation it was the way to a better life, for my generation it has not proven to be the same. in the 1980s i was taught you HAD to have a degree to have a career, and i see very few examples of that being true today. having a snowplough would have been a much better career investment than 6 years at college.

Luke, I am your Prefrontal Cortex!

The prefrontal cortex is the "executive functioning" part of the human brain.  If you have ADHD you probably aren't communicating with it fully.  Ditto for fibromyaglia and anxiety disorders and depression and a host of other central nervous system and endocrine disorders. 

During puberty it conveniently goes off line.  Easier to get us knocked up when we can't think clearly.  Evolution, baby.  So yelling at a teenager "what were you thinking?" "what is going on in that mind of yours?" "why didn't you think this out clearly?" "how stupid are you?" and "where was your brain?" is incredibly unproductive.  it's like screaming at a man "why aren't you pregnant?"

while high on them hormones, teenagers have a lot of other skills.  many cultures believe that the awakened sexual energy is the same as spiritual energy, which is why so many teenagers get into religion and metaphysics.  kundalini explosion!  if you know anything about kundalini yoga you know how dangerous that energy is when someone is not readied for it.  some believe that poltergeists are in fact teenage psychic energy out of control.  for these reasons, some societies have initiation rites like the vision quest.  (another reason for initiation is so people know where they fit into their people.)

another thing about puberty, it takes a lot of energy and teenagers really need their sleep. often 12 hours a day.  so yelling "why are you so lazy?" is again working against nature.

(why do teenagers go to high school?  or pick a career?  this is the worst time for decision making.  which is why the military successfully preys on them.  a key saying for me as a teenager to remember what the guys my age were like was "young dumb and full of cum.")

my friend Paganaidd is the best parent i know.  she has two teenagers and because she is what i would consider a scientific animist (with a polytheist and psychic groove), her kids know all about science. when she says to them "i am your prefrontal cortex now and that's why you have to do this," they get it.  you cannot argue with science. they know it is her job to make sure they stay alive and unharmed until they reach full adulthood.  they know that biology has given her an edge they do not have right now.

if you were like my parents, neither of whom had their prefrontal cortex working, don't try to be one for others.  this is why i am considered "self raised" and a "parentified child" although i like to joke "free range" and "feral."  so many people not qualified to be parents keep doing it. if you cannot handle everything life throws at you in a healthy manner, do not get pregnant!

Paganaidd gives talks on consensual sex to high schoolers. she asks 15 year old boys "how do you when a girl has given consent for sex?" and none of them know.  they want to know, but no one has told them.  meanwhile the girls have been taught sluts want sex so don't carry condoms with you. she adds the very important COMMUNICATION SKILLS part of sex ed that i wish i and all my exlovers had been taught.

she also teaches realistic alcohol and drug info.

teenagers tend to care about tangibles more than abstracts due to that prefrontal cortex being on vacation.  this was part of a friend's sex talk with his 14 year old son.  "this is a condom. use it. or you'll be paying $700 a month for 18 years."  of everything he said to his blase teenage son, money grabbed his attention.  that $700 means less video games, no more secret red bull, and an end to snowboarding passes. plus he wants a car someday with a kick ass stereo.

vague things like "health" "responsibility" and even "death" don't register well in a brain without the capacity for abstract thought. concrete things like money, weight gain, and scarring do register well.  scare tactics using the things that teenagers do care about work much better than scare tactics using the things adults care about like "ethics" "stock market" and "life expectancy." 

if you tell someone who is 14 years old about how she could die at 30 because of her behavior, she might think "wow that's a long time from now, cool."  i come from a generation that assumed we'd be dead by 21 or 30 from AIDS or nuclear war.  the shock so many of us had in our early adulthood, the slacker thing, was partially because many of us never thought we'd reach that age so we hadn't prepared.

when talking to anyone, but especially teenagers and preschoolers, vagueness does not cut it.  they want hard facts about things that affect them. 

it is not enough to say "only have sex with girls who want to have sex with you" without explaining how to figure out what the girl is thinking. just saying "don't have sex with a girl who says no" isn't good enough, you have to teach boys to learn when a girl is saying yes.  you also have to teach girls that it is OK to say yes and they control their sexuality.  and once yes is reached, birth control birth control birth control. if you don't feel up to this task, don't have kids!

paganaidd's parents were friends with a man working with the first AIDS sufferers.  he showed her and her friends photos of persons with untreated AIDS.  this had a major influence on those kids' drug choices. i saw my mom attempt to give up coffee when i was 7 and because of how hard it was for her, i have never to this day had either coffee or black tea.  i think field trips to the drunk tank detox at police stations could be constructive teaching events.  so would talks by 90 year olds who had amazingly interesting lives. and for godz' sakes. no more exaddicts telling kids about how much fun partying down for 10 years was until the bottom fell out, because kids will just think "i'll not be as stupid as him and get out sooner."

many parents live in terror of their child knowing of their past involvement with acid, meth, E or living 15 years in stonerville.  half the kids they have were conceived in an umm altered state of consciousness (ie Mom and Dad were fucked up).  because of this shame, they educate their kids not at all about drugs, scared of being "caught."  then there are parents who assume their kids are too young, smart and/or protected to ever need to know anything about drugs.  these are the parents of drug addicts.  again, you have to be the prefrontal cortex.  a person without a fully functioning prefrontal cortex says, "ohhh, this glue could cause brain damage and death!  let's huff it!  ha ha ha, i am a ramone!"

i know, at age 11 they were so smart.

the wild thing about the human brain is that is consists of many brains and also chemicals and nerves throughout the whole body.  your body is your brain.  you cannot have a brain without having a body. hormones like when PMS or being high with testosterone cause you think a certain way.  most of your serotonin is in your tummy. your skin gives a lot of information. all your senses are part of your mind.  a lot of scientists now say that a computer cannot be a real artifical intelligence.  you have to be embodied to live.  (one point for us sacred materialists and a big nyah nyah to those "spiritual" people who don't care about the physical world.  a point too for animists, saying that all matter is alive.)

my friend's exfiance whom she cares for at severe cost to herself had two strokes.  half his brain is dead, but because he was a genius pre-strokes he has an average IQ.  if you know people with traumatic brain injuries or have one yourself, you know firsthand what it is like when a human has many brains working and some not working.

there really isn't a "normal brain" that i know of - people in love are technically crazy due to the flood of hormones.  those of us with PTSD have bigger amygdalas (fight or freeze or flight brain) which work much faster than the prefrontal cortex can keep up with, which is why we rarely can stop the activation of the fear system.  persons with borderline personality disorder seem to have offline hippocampus, so their memories are not great.  ADHD's lack of dopamine prevents messages from getting the prefrontal cortex, so we ADHDers are not working with all the information much of the time.

since there is no normal brain because all humans are different due to experiences, health, and age, it makes sense to work with the brain as it is, not how you wish it was.

are you ready to become someone's prefrontal cortex?  are you even your own yet?

PS I am totally pro-teenager, most teenagers know more about truth than any adult.  This article was to get adults to do their job as parents - Not to be their teenager's friend but to be their child's prefrontal cortex.  I want teenagers to live to see adulthood and when they get there, to not be in prison, with child, in debt, addicted or disabled.

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I haven't started yet, but here are some samplings of what is being taught:  Wicca 101, How To Start a Crafts Business, Sewing 101, Ancient Civilizations, Buddhism 101, ABCs of Physics, Weight Loss, Anger Management, Tarot 101, Grant Proposal Writing, Cosmology, Nutrition, Negociation, Yoga 101, Meditation 101, Mediation, Paranomral Roamance Book Writing, Dog Training 101, Magick, Anatomy, Aromatherapy, Autism 101, How to Start a Day Care, Clutter Control, Astronomy, Dreamweaver 101, Tex Mex Cooking, GED prep, American Civil War 101, How To Write a Business Plan, Babysitting 101, ESL Basic Grammar, ABCs of Algebra, All About Herbs and many more classes about business, computers, and art!

If you have any knowledge of the subjects I am guessing the classes will be below your interest level, as they are self-paced, online 101s. 

What was before the New American Chakras, Heather?

Take a look.  These are the original chakras Hindus have been working/playing with for thousands of years.  The Hindus have (as far as WESTERNERS know) been good sports about having their entire culture whitewashed into Newage sewage. (There is a Hindu group protesting Neopagans having statues of Hindu Deities in their homes without knowing the proper care and feeding of them.  The ravers with the status of a married woman on their foreheads, fuck you.  Same to the hippie girls wearing sacred wedding night art as get-laid nightclub decorations via henna.  But I do not trust an Indian restaurant that serves beef.  BTW I like Northern Indian food best.)

Personally I do feel strongly about The New American Chakra shit.  One reason is because I grew up pre-Newage sewage so I learned the originals and they have so many details, I lost them in the avalanche of rainbow nonsense.  The original chakras have connections with so much more than a color and part of your personality.  So much more.  I am angry that this wisdom is being lost!

Another reason is that as someone of Indo-European heritage, the chakras are actually in my cultural arena.  If done right, anyone who speaks an Indo-European (or Indo-Iranian) language is not doing cultural misappropriation when interactng with the chakras, the wheels.  (We I-Es do love our wheels!)  But how can we do it right when it has been preverted for easy-to-use, dumbed down Newage sewage into something no Hindu can recognize unless they have been heavily Westernized.

My last reason is that I am sick of the cross over of Me Generation pop psychology and borrowed bits of other religions.  The Newage sewage is based entirely on the individual ("Me Generation") and capitalism.  To rewrite the Clash lyric "You think it's funny turning holy ways into money."  Every piece  they steal out of context from chakras to vision quests to peyote weekends with "shamans," is a slap in the face of the sacredness of ancient traditions of peoples whose whole cultures and personal lives are at risk for extinction.

The chakras have an art and science that is far more complex than the guided meditation your gym's yoga teacher does in the last 5 minutes of the class.  See if this art doesn't inspire you to want to learn more.  Then start demanding your local Newage sewage stores and teachers to teach this instead in books and classes, within Hindu context by a Hindu.

Chakras, hatha (physical) yoga, jyotish astrology, Hinduism, they are all profoundly linked. Practicing only one part without understanding the whole won't work.  Your experience will be superficial.  Many shallow explorations does not make one deep.

A ka-billion Years of Hindu Ones

new American chakras-shallow!